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| Displayed name | ef |
| Member number | 2476 |
| Title | Guardian |
| Postcount | 1828 |
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| Registered | Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Wednesday, April 7 2004 14:33
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Easily accessible sound files would be a new feature for Windows users. So far, they've always been stored within the .exe. It is possible to add sound files to the .exe, not just replace them. get_sdf, pc_heard_sound and play_sound are the calls used in the Geneforge scripts, and as the Geneforge scripts look much like Avernumscript I assume it is the same in BoA? -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Wednesday, April 7 2004 14:33
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Easily accessible sound files would be a new feature for Windows users. So far, they've always been stored within the .exe. It is possible to add sound files to the .exe, not just replace them. get_sdf, pc_heard_sound and play_sound are the calls used in the Geneforge scripts, and as the Geneforge scripts look much like Avernumscript I assume it is the same in BoA? -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Tuesday, April 6 2004 23:40
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quote:I'd be grateful and happy, if such a program existed. -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Tuesday, April 6 2004 23:40
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quote:I'd be grateful and happy, if such a program existed. -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Tuesday, April 6 2004 23:26
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Someone posted a link to the PDF-files some time ago, but it seems to be dead by now. So here: BoA-Editor -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Monday, April 5 2004 21:17
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quote:As far as I know - and my source was rather reliable - Hollywood uses Linux. [ Monday, April 05, 2004 21:18: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Saturday, April 3 2004 17:15
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That reshack is a nice program, thanks. Easy to use. -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Saturday, April 3 2004 17:15
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That reshack is a nice program, thanks. Easy to use. -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Thursday, April 1 2004 12:57
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You can't run DOS on Win 2000. Away from that there shouldn't be any problems. -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Tuesday, March 30 2004 13:29
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But being all serious is no fun. -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Sunday, March 28 2004 22:20
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quote:I do not agree with you, but we've discussed this point already, so I suggest that you read the thread from page 2 or 3 onward. I'm with Thunvael who reminds you to 'not judge your neighbour, before you have not walked a mile in his mocassins'. Away from that, clinical depression is also a physical disorder of brain chemistry. Myself, I do not believe in punishing Gods, and I'd like to differentiate between institutionalised religions and the essential spiritual Oneness we all share. I've always wondered how it is possible to trust a deity who is less loving, understanding and acknowledging than we humans find ourselves capable to be. I know that christianity believes that God had his own son crucified to atone for our sins. That deed is absolutely meaningless, if our 'weaknesses' still condemn us to hell. But my own interpretation differs anyway: to me the very much overlooked message is that of resurrection. No matter how crucified you feel yourself to be, nothing ever touches or hurts the spiritual being you are, which though within a body is not confined by it and survives undamaged and whole. [ Sunday, March 28, 2004 22:44: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Saturday, March 27 2004 23:31
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Don't I remember Drakey saying that he would long have given you a juicy custom title, were it not that - mmhhhhh.... What would you like to get, by the way? [ Saturday, March 27, 2004 23:38: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Friday, March 26 2004 23:16
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I don't think FBM denied reality, rather refered to the absurdity of our socalled 'normality'. To live with a fully developed awareness of that requires a stable mind, in my opinion. A deeply depressed person may be aware of the absurdity of it all, but believes that 'reality' as s/he experiences it, is the only 'reality' that is. -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Friday, March 26 2004 16:20
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quote:That wouldn't have made much sense, would it. You said that the popping up of forums is a historical inevitability of the internet. So a roleplaying forum - as Polaris is now - would sooner or later have come about anyway. [ Friday, March 26, 2004 16:28: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Tuesday, March 23 2004 09:43
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quote:What does this refer to? Any true artist is a rope-walker, a lot of researchers are. Maybe we are not talking about the same type of person? What do you mean by 'being committed'? [ Tuesday, March 23, 2004 12:56: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Tuesday, March 23 2004 05:42
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quote:I agree, Kyna. But there are those who need to explore the very limits of their potentials. quote:To gain freedom, to open doors within you that otherwise won't open, some need to take risks that may seem unruly and outrageous to those who never feel that urge. Some have to walk on the edge and balance themselves there. Which is possible without dying or losing your sanity. [ Tuesday, March 23, 2004 06:08: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Sunday, March 21 2004 17:58
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It's a strange progress that reduces you to playing only the latest and newest outputs. -------------------- Polaris Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done Rache's A3 Site, original version Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Saturday, March 20 2004 09:28
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That's what I would like to know too. It's strange, somehow. -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Thursday, March 18 2004 01:37
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Kick me, if you think me an unwelcome intruder, Stughalf. "that I seem to view life as a sort of dead-end trek" meaning that without knowing how you've manoevoured yourself in a dead-end trek? "I haven't an inkling as to how to gain more motivation" meaning the motivation is not on the path you've chosen to follow? "how to light the fire...which seems to have been extinguished" meaning it is not where you look for it? Your fire is who you are. Its sparkles when you express 'your Self'. Maybe your 'ineffectuality' is not caused by any failure, but by a strong inner drive to be who you are, and not who your 'persona' wants you to be. Maybe you misunderstood something when you were younger and instead of adding outward strength to your inner potential chose to abandon the part that carries your light. Maybe that part does not accept your decision and does not let you go on with it. How many people do you know who'd be content and efficient living with what to you seems a cage and an empty shell? I guess quite a few. How come you feel its emptiness? What part of you makes you aware? How come you know how shallow success and achievement are, if pursued for their own sake? How come you want something else, something more 'true'? What part of yourself does know? Could you imagine listening to it, asking it what it wants? What it truly and deeply needs? What it knows? Do not expect immediate answers. But thoughts will come, feelings will come that point you in the right direction. -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Monday, March 15 2004 11:41
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Answering Chuck's post: "We often fight in others what we are not able to accept within ourselves, what we do not want to know about ourselves, what we do not want to see." The Macho who harrasses softer men may not hide from his own softness - let's imagine he has little of that - but he certainly passes judgement. And by doing so, he feels to be in the right and strong, a 'real' man. That's the effect of judgement on us, we feel an uplifting, we feel our value, because we are not like that. If I met him, I'd say: that's interesting. Why does that bully need to feel uplifted? I mean, he is already strong, why can't he look on softness with equanimity as on something that has nothing to do with him? What does it have to do with him that is so irritating that he has to put a ban of judgement on it? If he told me, that soft is weak and weak is bad: well, he doesn't consider himself a weakling, so what does weakness have to do with him that it has to be avoided at all cost? "But hiding from my shadow is hiding from myself." To shorten the path of questioning, maybe I'd find in the end that his mother didn't like emotional boys, and he learned to avoid emotion, if he wanted to be loved. I know I'm simplifying things, but if you follow the chain backwards, you always come upon something of that nature: I can only be accepted/loved, if... It is interesting and tragic, that the paths we then choose to find love/acceptance are often such that prevent us from getting it. And selflove, in the bully's case we'd have to say: I can only love myself, if I do not feel. How's he going to do that? "Being willing to see myself is being on my side. Why should I not want to be on my side?" He does not have to change. But selfacceptance will be easier without having to fight shadows, in this case with the realization that a boy's expression of emotions is not a sign of weakness or of being 'wrong' in the child. Why should he not become aware of the presence of his mother's values within him and come up with something authentically his own in their stead? "Why should I be less than I am?" Even a bully might learn that the occasional expression of soft emotion is less dangerous than he thought it to be. -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Monday, March 15 2004 01:24
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To procrastinator: sorry, went on a weekend trip. I'll PM you, as this is completely unrelated to the current topic. Also there seems to be some misunderstanding somewhere. To clarify that I'll use the german language in writing to you, if you don't mind. -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Saturday, March 13 2004 16:26
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Mh. Well, if it was not more than a theory to me, I would not have written about it. I do not quite understand what it is that you want a shortcut for. For becoming aware of your shadow? Being on your own side? [ Saturday, March 13, 2004 16:32: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Friday, March 12 2004 12:09
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I'd like to speak up for Chuck, who's not a cold fish, but tries to digest the information he gets. I've seen a boy die because of treatment as you describe it, Kelandon. Yes, it happens. To prevent misunderstanding: I meant that strength is something you find within yourself. You are not strong just because you belong to a majority that backs you. The attackers in your story are brutal, not strong. Chuck, you said in one of your posts that we are like that, that we like to see people suffer. Is that a sign of weakness or of strength, what do you think? We often fight in others what we are not able to accept within ourselves, what we do not want to know about ourselves, what we do not want to see. But hiding from my shadow is hiding from myself. Being willing to see myself is being on my side. Why should I not want to be on my side? Why should I want to be less than I am? -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Friday, March 12 2004 06:37
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quote:Biocybernetics researches the mechanisms of control and regulation within living systems. Biologically we are a living system, consisting of a myriad of selfregulating circles that are all interwoven and work together. Thought and feeling trigger biochemical responses: your bloodpressure may rise when you see an exciting movie. The impulse to write may not be physical (though I know we could have a neverending debate over this point), but if you move your hands and type, a complex and complicated chain of neural and biochemical reactions has taken place to make that possible. Even minimal lack of a transmitter substance (and serotonin is a transmitter) can lead to major disturbances within regulation circles that need that substance's presence to be triggered into action. quote:I apologize for using your paragraph to get my own message through. Machos do not see their soft side; perfectionists do not see that they try to freeze themselves into the 'perfect form', while what makes them lovable is their openness to movement and change. Depressed people feel the heavy weight of power they possess but block and cannot use. [ Friday, March 12, 2004 06:44: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |
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written Thursday, March 11 2004 14:35
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If you like that thought, use it. quote:I'm female. That's why. I'm straight, but if I were not I would not lose one particle of feminine identity. And working with depressive women has taught me how extraordinarily strong they are. This is a male conflict, partly due to your tendency to identify with thought, with what you think is right or wrong, acceptable or unacceptable. Thought gives you a direction, structures, defines, ensures control. It's easier for me. My innermost identity is based on feeling, not on thought. As long as I follow my feeling within a relationship I'm in tune with myself and feel to be honestly myself. Women's conflicts with role models refer to other aspects of life, as for instance how to be a good mother and yet have a life of your own. [ Friday, March 12, 2004 01:38: Message edited by: ef ] -------------------- Polaris Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00 |