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Suicide in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Thursday, March 11 2004 11:33 Profile #64
I feel uncomfortable with this.

quote:
strong, non-depressed, heterosexuals tend to be afraid of questions concerning their rightful belonging to the majority
How can you call anyone strong whose identity and selfassurance are dependant on belonging to the majority? Who fears to be questioned? Isn't that a sign of terrible weakness?

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I do not think that attributing depression to a physical or homosexuality to a genetic cause will help against this anxiety about our own identity - but accepting that we have a weak side in ourselves might help
Nothing wrong with accepting our fear. But neither depression nor homosexuality are weaknesses that you have to protect your identity from.

Or did I misunderstand you?

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Suicide in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Thursday, March 11 2004 10:03 Profile #61
quote:
I agree with Arancaytar I dont think that a chemical unbalance is the cause of suicide.
Not all suicides are the outcome of depression. But when they are the neurotransmitter serotonin always plays a part. Depression is treated - and treated successfully - with substances that regulate the output of serotonin.

A lot of people tend to feel slightly down and/or depressed during the winter months, a season where serotonin production is low due to lack of sun and light. That's why light therapy, even sun studio helps a bit. It's interesting that the traditional spices in christmas cookies all work to maximize serotonin production. Our ancestors used what they found helpful.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Suicide in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Wednesday, March 10 2004 11:46 Profile #41
Imagine that I put chains with heavy iron boulders on your feet and your wrists and then ask you to go and move as always and do everything as always. The inner paralysis of depression feels a bit like that, a heavy weight that you have to drag along with you. A depressive person may need all the discipline and mental strength he/she can muster to just get up and wash and dress. Imagine yourself doing that with iron weights, imagine how exhausted you'd be. Imagine you give everything you have not to let anyone notice that the weights slow you down. Then someone comes and tells you to hurry up and get a grip on yourself. Imagine that you do not want to kill that person, instead feel ashamed, because you are obviously week and not as good as they are.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Suicide in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Tuesday, March 9 2004 16:01 Profile #23
I agree with you, Alorael. Severe pain, be it physical or other, is terribly exhausting. If there's no relief, then sooner or later you reach a point where what strength you had is spent.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Suicide in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Tuesday, March 9 2004 11:02 Profile #12
I'd like to add loss of hope to your list, procrastinator.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Purpose? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Wednesday, March 3 2004 17:16 Profile #61
Exactly.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Purpose? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Wednesday, March 3 2004 16:52 Profile #59
I apologize for being rather blunt just in case you really don't know.

Next time you feel an emotional high get a knife and cut yourself deeply. Please don't stop to feel your emotional high. What's physical pain after all.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Purpose? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Wednesday, March 3 2004 16:03 Profile #55
quote:
quote BoThra:
so that it will be the most special moment the first time you do it.
This is a most unrealistic romanticism for which the girl will have to pay the prize.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Purpose? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Wednesday, March 3 2004 00:12 Profile #49
If you planned a long sailing trip - sailing around the world - you would expect yourself to be a knowledgable and practised sailor, wouldn't you. You would also want to know your ship, its machinery, behaviour, reaction and your own interaction with it. You'd prepare yourself for the challenge of meeting the unexpected and the unknown.
So tell me why in life - planning the adventure of marriage - inexperience and lack of knowledge should be an advantage.

You have to learn yourself and your partner which involves learning how to react to each other, to listen, to be aware. You've got to learn that on every level, physical, emotional, mental. Otherwise you may end up abusing your partner without even knowing it or feel abused yourself.

Maybe it all comes down to how many aspects of yourself you are willing to confront and explore. And how much honesty and sharing you are willing and capable to open yourself to.

[ Wednesday, March 03, 2004 00:29: Message edited by: ef ]

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Purpose? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Sunday, February 29 2004 03:29 Profile #21
quote:

quote ef:
There are people who, no matter how much they like each other, sexually do not suit. They may try, but it won't work out. They can be friends, but they should never marry.

quote Daedalus:
I'm slightly confused as to what you're saying here. Is it that you believe sex is mandatory to a loving relationship, or marriage, or whatever?
A loving relationship can be anything, parents' love, friendship, mating.

Though there are exceptions sex is usually an integral part of adult mating, within or without marriage. You certainly need more than good 'chemistry' between both partners to make a relationship work, but without such 'chemistry' a longterm partnership can become difficult and/or frustrating for both.

The more so, as romantic love (and how many people marry because of it) is often blissfully unaware of who the other really is. Instead projects whatever quality or beauty you would like to meet. It can develop into love or end with the realization that you've been in love with your own mental image of what you want the other one to be. Then you start to quarrel and nag, trying to force your partner to change and become what you want him/her to be.
Though sexual attraction does not solve that problem, it may soften you enough to try better ways of communication.

Love, to me, is more a state of being than an emotion. 'Beauty is in the eye that sees', meaning the ability to value, enjoy and express the other's inner and outer qualities more than all the flaws that are also part of the bargain and that you are clearly aware of. Love is very realistic.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Purpose? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Saturday, February 28 2004 17:31 Profile #17
quote:
I beleive sex before marriage greatly diminishes the whole emotional aspect of the act
What about those who, though perfectly willing to mate, prefer not to marry?
And, if there is no deep emotion before marriage, where does it come from afterwards?
Also, though this is a rather pragmatic view, there are people who, no matter how much they like each other, sexually do not suit. They may try, but it won't work out. They can be friends, but they should never marry.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
girlz place in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Monday, February 23 2004 12:40 Profile #49
quote:
but I know it's a pipe dream
No, it's not. I've known childhood isolation too. It took years to overcome that, that's true. But in the end it didn't keep me from living my life as I wanted and needed to do. Friends and longterm mates included.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
BoE on Windows XP in Tech Support
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Sunday, February 15 2004 05:49 Profile #2
It's an older game, so you may confront a compatibility problem. Microsoft offers compatibility patches for games, just check their site.

Also read this:

Compatibility mode

[ Sunday, February 15, 2004 05:55: Message edited by: ef ]

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Polaris
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Rache's A3 Site, original version
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Nethergate: Game Crashing in Nethergate
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Sunday, February 15 2004 05:43 Profile #2
I've never heard of this before. Yes, you could consider downloading it again, but I remember your troubles with the download. You seem to confront a lot of problems with this particular game, how about buying the CD-version?

[ Sunday, February 15, 2004 05:44: Message edited by: ef ]

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Polaris
Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done
Rache's A3 Site, original version
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Not something involved with spidweb games, but please help me. in Tech Support
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Friday, February 13 2004 19:33 Profile #9
He has an online, not an offline problem, if I understand him right. Though just in case,
did you check your registry:
HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE
SOFTWARE
Microsoft
Windows
Current Version
Run

What did you find?

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Polaris
Rache's A3 Site reformatted 2/3 done
Rache's A3 Site, original version
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down... Again in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Monday, February 2 2004 14:28 Profile #12
Ok. Interim Forum reopened.
Go to: Interim

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down... Again in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Monday, February 2 2004 14:08 Profile #9
Right. And your link connects me to the site smoothly and easily.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down... Again in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Monday, February 2 2004 13:56 Profile #7
Now that's interesting. Can noone reach the site? Because I'm on it. Logo peeped in, Nazgul too.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down... Again in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Monday, February 2 2004 13:49 Profile #5
Eh, sorry, but I've been logged into Polaris for quite a while now. I had server access problems today on quite a few sites that I would have needed to contact, so this could be something more general.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Saturday, January 24 2004 18:47 Profile #56
Stop that. Teh Project can be restored from memory, I still have a few notes, though not much, but others may have bits and pieces too. Motrax will probably have the map as do I, along with the graphs. I hope the same is true for Calithon. Everything else can be remade. If the thing is lost, get a new forum up tomorrow.

edit: ok. Go to Testforum

It's only a testforum right now. I'll see what I can do. Logo, I'll PM you the password for the adminboard.

[ Saturday, January 24, 2004 18:50: Message edited by: ef ]

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Saturday, January 24 2004 13:28 Profile #46
Logo, I still have that vacant forum lying around somewhere that I installed last year when you moved to play it safe. I would have to search the passwords, they should be somewhere. If you want to use it as an interim you can have it.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
The System is Down in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Saturday, January 24 2004 09:19 Profile #42
Logalot is playing around with the database and also installs a new type of forum. He does have backups. If he loses them, well...strangle him.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
Nethergate? in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Friday, January 16 2004 11:26 Profile #9
I still prefer Exile to Avernum and Geneforge bores me a bit. Nethergate - you cannot compare it to either series, it is unique. Not in Jeff Vogel's usual style at all, but the best he's done so far in my opinion.

[ Friday, January 16, 2004 11:26: Message edited by: ef ]

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
My PC crashed! in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Thursday, January 1 2004 14:34 Profile #24
I don't know anything about Macs, as I've never used one. And around here they are not cheaper, just the contrary. But I suppose that if you inadvertently deleted some system directory files, a Mac would like that as little as a PC does.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00
My PC crashed! in General
ef
Guardian
Member # 2476
 written Thursday, January 1 2004 14:25 Profile #22
No, it's not the same. Programs share files among them. Deleting will make you lose files other applications or programs would have needed, which can lead to all sorts of trouble, system crashes included. Deinstalling preserves shared files and leaves them on your computer.

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Polaris
Posts: 1828 | Registered: Saturday, January 11 2003 08:00

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