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I would get a message saying that graphics 2000 wasn't found and a message saying that warriorsgrove.bas couldn't be found and opened.
That triggers a memory. That very same complaint came up a couple of times when BoA was new. You might like to check the Tech Support Forum; search for posts in 2004 and move on from there. I think it was something about not creating a subfolder for the editor, it has to be placed as such into the data folder.

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SPAM in General
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owned 1 share in a bank
Oh well, he did a bit more than that.
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Just for clarification: being on a spiritual search, as Synergy is, does not automatically include a belief in spirits. There's a difference between spiritualism and spiritism.

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I begin to understand what you are commenting on. But man, Synergy, it shouldn't be that difficult for me. You see, I'm old, so I was there when the whole thing started, when one part of me was out in the streets shouting 'Ho Chi Minh' and another part felt puzzled by the redclothed guys with their malas, disciples of a man who later went by the name of Osho. So I went to the bookstores to find out more. I know the whole New Age terminology up and down, I should get what you are talking about quite easily.

Ok, I finally grasp why you see your mind as such a troubling and frustrating part of you, clouding and misinterpreting the 'clarity' of your feeling.

But, hey, it's just the other way round. In all truth, if you set out to study and explore your inner landscapes, you'll need every ounce (if not more) of a scientist's detachment, mental precision, focus, differentiation, patience and perseverance to not get lost and not be led astray by your own inner vision.

You say you use your body to contact your feeling perception. Well, the first thing you come into contact with that way are the tensions and stresses within your muscles created by unpleasant experiences and memories. So, if your 'soul's' message is 'you are safe', your body stores emotional memories that 'know' better, and emotion links with mind to keep you from walking a dangerous, a very dangerous path. Don't bedevil the mind. It is but an instrument. Don't bedevil the blockage. It's there to protect you.

You need your mind, and you need detachment from upcoming emotion to recognize the blockage for what it is and to start diagnosing it.

Your body 'knows' that there are madmen around that may just shoot you, and of course it's right. There are. Your 'soul' tells you that there is a spiritual part of you that's always safe and asks you to identify more with that. And you need to be precise and differentiate or it gets all messed up.

To answer your questions: my native language is german and I'm a psychotherapist, as you may have guessed by now.

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My own language does not differentiate between feeling and emotion, we have one word for both. I have learned what the difference is and will point it out, but should it not be correct, I'd like to be told.

Emotions move like waves, always changing, having highs and lows, coming and going.

'Feeling' refers to deeper layers than emotion and does not change, is a state of being.

Love is the only feeling I am aware of. Someone you deeply love can nevertheless make you terribly angry, but that doesn't change your love, it often doesn't touch it at all.

The way you sometimes use that term, Synergy, seems more to refer to 'sensing' or 'feeling into'. 'Feeling into' yourself, 'listening' for something to come up. Is this right?

Now feeling and intuition. If what I learned is valid, feeling and intuition cannot be synonyms, as intuition is most certainly not a state of being. Feeling, on the other hand, is not a surprising nanosecond of immediate recognition and clarity.

Moreover, having a 'gut feeling' is not the only way people come in contact with intuition. It can just as easily be experienced as 'expanded mind', no emotion or feeling involved whatsoever.

You say that emotion is a response to intuition or an interpretation of intuition. I don't understand that at all. Do you assume that every emotion we have should be seen as a response to an intuition that we may or may not be aware of?

Also, why should your reaction to an intuition be emotional at all?

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Thank you for sharing.

My own definition is not set in stone and may change with time and deeper understanding.

As there is a subconscious part of me, so there's a superconscious too. The subconscious seems to be mostly a tapestry of memories, emotional and mental, a storage room of things already past, but influencing my behaviour, my expectations, my outlook on things in my presence.

The superconscious seems always so many steps ahead of me, a tapestry or kind of matrix of my full potentials and possibilities, aware on conscious and subconscious levels, drawing me forward, clear of purpose when my conscious 'I' still struggles in the dark. What I call 'intuition' is that light bulb second of immediate recognition, of sudden understanding, when the superconscious part connects with my conscious awareness and changes it. It may also in that blinding second of clarity change some of the impact that subconscious memories had on me.

That is as close as I can come to an understanding of 'soul'.

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Synergy, you wrote that 'your soul recoils', and I thought: mmh, as I understand 'soul', it wouldn't recoil, couldn't really, so Synergy's concept must be different from mine, but what is it? How does Synergy define 'soul' which is such a very important aspect of life to him? I don't know. He doesn't tell us.

Likewise 'intuition'. How do you define 'intuition', what precisely do you refer to when you say that you want to let yourself be led by it? What is leading you?

The concepts may be very clear to you, in which case understanding would be easier, if you shared them with us.

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Happy Birthday, Drakey! in General
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Hi Drakey, have a happy day! I wish you all the best and all your favourite cookies.

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Omaha Mall Shooting in General
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A couple of weeks ago, a school shooting could be prevented in my country, because the two who planned it talked about it on the internet, and friends got scared and called the police. One of the boys shot himself when they came for him, the other said that they wouldn't have done it. But armour and munition were found in their rooms, so how can you be sure.

And today, in a small village in the north, a mother of five killed all her kids.

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Mental training in General
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The mind-boggling complexity of that many synapses and neurochemicals is easily capable of exhibiting all the phenomena that any non-reductionist mentalist might attribute to immaterial mind. The brain is its own place, and in itself can make a heav'n of hell, a hell of heaven.
Thank you, SoT. That is what I am afraid of.

Alex, you tell us that you've trained visualization, and that you wish to do the same with the 'audio' and the 'olfactory'. The sense of smelling for instance is located in a part of the brain where emotional memory is also stored. That's why smelling hay can bring up immediate images of summer vacations spent in the country. But not all emotional memories are pleasurable. Are you prepared for this?

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If after a long break he still wanted to continue with this, I'd rather prefer to help him find out more about his priorities and find a teacher than see him repeat what he's doing now, Kel.

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Mental training in General
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I don't like what you are doing, Alex, not one little bit.

If I understand you right, you wish to broaden and widen your consciousness. The key to this is not (and add any number of exclamation marks here) the type of hyped up mental activity you currently experiment with. The key to what you wish to achieve is relaxation.

You are on an unsafe path with this. Stop it. Please do. Don't do any exercise for a long while, so that your mind can rest and hopefully forget some of this very wrong training.

And please don't start learning relaxation techniques right away. Give yourself a break.

If half a year from now you are still interested in learning about these things, I'll help you find a safe path. That I promise.

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Mental training in General
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I do not know what you've read and what techniques you use, so you may already be aware of what I'm going to say. Nevertheless, I feel better telling you.

Never use negatives like 'I don't want' or 'I won't be'. The subconscious does not understand negatives and blends them out. So 'I don't want to be ill' changes to 'I want to be ill'.

Don't use words like 'damage' or 'instability' that bring up unpleasant associations. The language of the unconscious is image and emotion and it reacts to those. So whatever statement you want to make, do it in a positive and uplifting way.

Don't use past tense or future, stay with present tense, with the 'I am'. If you point to the future, your subconscious understands that this is not now and won't do anything.

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Particularly that anything that would cause damage or instability is to be utterly disregarded
Are you sure that this is wise? A cold now and then is good training for your immune system. And think of all the people who say that an illness or accident has changed how they think about life and changed their life styles. How are we to know what's the 'healthiest' path in the long run?

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if I spend hours of each day willing it to be so, commanding my mind to make it so
There's too much force here. Imagine an artist, highly focused, yet completely relaxed, absorbed in the presence of what he's doing.

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Mental training in General
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The problem is that it worked.
Ok, that changes the situation. Hypnosis and Self Hypnosis or Autosuggestion are accredited therapeutical tools and have been so since the 1950s. Cancer rehabilitation centers often use them, in my country and in the US as well.

You may have heard that people try these therapies to stop smoking or lose weight. If they don't have a good therapist who knows what he's doing and when, this can backfire. Why? Because if you have emotional issues that lead to uncontrolled eating, ordering your subconscious to stop will work, but does not heal the emotional problem. Your body will now have to find a new and different outlet to express your issues, and will come up with something that's far more destructive than the forbidden path.

So you can force results, but you cannot dissolve blockages in this fashion. You just push them deeper in.

On the other hand, self hypnosis is a beautiful tool to place suggestions of general peace, wellbeing, relaxation and healing.

For you the only healthy path is to learn the thing properly. There are courses online and offline. Offline's better, so you can be supervised and can ask questions. There is nothing to fear, just more than the conscious ego to consider.

Thinking of boundaries, I'll give you one. It won't work for everybody, but I think it will work for you. Next time you you plant a thought, add that it will only work if it is in alignment with your highest good, with your soul's highest purpose. That should get you out of a few traps.

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I strongly advice against doing this without further and more intensive study of the matter. Not because I fear that it wouldn't work, rather because I fear that it might. Self Hypnosis is a technique with rules that have to be followed. You wouldn't want to plant suggestions into your subconscious without knowing how to get rid of them later on, and without knowing how they might change you.

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Left or Right? in General
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Agreed.

There is this truly fascinating book: "Half a brain is enough" by Antonio Battro, a spanish psychologist, telling the story of Nico, whose right brain hemisphere was almost completely removed at a very young age because of severe epilepsy.

What would drastically damage an adult with a more or less set pattern of neuronal interaction between hemispheres is experienced very differently by a then 4-year-old, whose patterns are still in development. Nico's left brain neurons have reoriented and reconnected themselves to take over a lot of the functions of the missing half of the brain. There is some impairment, but sofar it seems to be minor.

I've been wondering all my life how the brain recognizes what's amiss and reorganizes. My own sister's brain has been severely damaged at birth, mechanically damaged, both sides of skull. Watching her cope with this, watching her come up with abilities all of a sudden that she hasn't had before is an ongoing experience. And she's 50 by now. So this process of adaptation does not seem to stop with her getting older. Is this because her neurons can never 'comfortably settle themselves' within a functioning network of communication and just repeat it, but 'have to be creative' and 'look for workarounds' all the time? I would really like to know.

[ Friday, November 02, 2007 23:28: Message edited by: ef ]

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Left or Right? in General
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Someone wrote a small article commenting this test:
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It's strange. As long as I look at the picture she goes clockwise. But when I start reading the text and see her without actually focusing on her, she changes her direction.

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Well, it looks as if Jasamcar doesn't get permission to set up an e-mail account of his own. So sharing one seems to be the only way to go.

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Try this link, Iffy:
FreeSerifSoftware

Serif let you download the older versions of their products for free. You have to register with them, but that is easy, they show you how. I think it is "Draw Plus" that you need for animations. And maybe you'll find other programs that are useful, too.

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Why I Will Not Play Avernum V in Avernum 4
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I was more referring to the depth of the overall graphics, not just the characters.
Misunderstanding then. The character graphics though, well, this is what I mean:
IMAGE(http://fritze.leukefeld.com/misc/av4a.gif)
IMAGE(http://fritze.leukefeld.com/misc/av4b.gif)

opposing this:
IMAGE(http://fritze.leukefeld.com/misc/av1.gif)

The older one is alive and sparkling compared to the new ones.

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Why I Will Not Play Avernum V in Avernum 4
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Uncle Av isn't there anymore. He's disappeared all of a sudden. You can't call him. You can't e-mail him. You can't send him a letter. You can't reach him at all.
I know what you mean. He's dead and won't return. I don't blame Jeff Vogel. It would take an exceptionally gifted graphics artist to project Exile/Avernum's atmosphere onto the new engine.

And I don't agree that the new animations are more realistic and have more depth. Instead I wondered why they appeared to be so flat and lacking 'presence', until I went to the graphics folder. A vast amount of time has probably been dedicated to master working with Poser, but a feeling for dynamic movement is something you can't learn. You have to have it. None of the three is a professional in this area, so we should appreciate that they do the best they can with limited resources. It's not so bad after all, though the old graphics were a lot better.

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Man or God in General
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They chose to listen to Satan and themselves over their Creator, who had given them everything. Ah, the power of a pretty face...
Mmh. You either have an omnipotent Oneness, called God, who created everything - in which case so called Satan is a part of God. Or you have a pair of twins called God and Satan in which case neither can be omnipotent. You just can't have it both ways.

If God is omnipotent, then good and evil are his light and his dark face, so no need for judgement.

I remember the british healer Tom Johanson once saying that the story of Eve and the apple made a lot of sense to him. That living in perfection in the garden of Eden would never have led to any awareness at all. As you are only aware of day when there's a conception of night, so you wouldn't know perfection without something that's less perfect to experience. And that 'the long walk home' is just a journey towards consciousness.

I like this perspective.

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Flora expert requested in General
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Mirabelles were quite common in my childhood. They then vanished from the markets for a long while, but are right now having a 'comeback'. There were and are different varieties, the red-spotted ones being the juiciest and sweetest. The yellow ones are somewhat smaller and harder, less sweet and used mostly for jams and marmelades.

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